Mm hmm.

Hi. It has been a long time. Since I last appeared here.

Time why you flying every single fking second :(

I seriously miss my holidays so much.

My comfort zone. Life's tough.

Well I actually got so damn much to tell I got the urge to write about so many things during the holidays but end up just posting them in my brain only.

Like the wallflower who always thinks and might be over-thinking sometimes.

But I guess I can't really recall them dy especially when I'm in the midst of life like this.

Messy life. My life is a mess :(  Messed things up always. What have I done to my life.

I'm not happy. I'm seriously telling this.

I never laughed without worrying since last Sunday.

I'm always afraid but it's normal not showing them outside.

Act like I'm okay so damn okay. Why do I have to but I had.

Actually once I really considered not writing negative posts on here any more.

Just in case you might see them. I don't have to let you know I'm in miserable right. What for.

Then I laughed at myself. Please lah. Is there's the possibility you will still spare your time for these sentimental shits? hah funny me.

By the way why in the first place I had ever thought of giving up this space because of you?

No, Why would I. It's the place I've been throwing things around since Idk when.

And why would this change? No. Never.

I admitted that you've seriously leave some significant traces in my life, unintentionally (?) changed some part of me.

But no, not this.

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Who are you why would I even.

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Okay seems like I'm still a 嘴硬 person ._.

拼命在脑子里对自己讲 有些思念 不用表达 也不用承认.

And one thing, do you know that insta changed the direct sending photo layout.

I don't like the way it messed up with the memories. All jumbled up all in one conversation.

Well I guess it's telling me never reading them again.

What for. Why still thinking of the good old days ignoring the ending.

Okay back to life.

I'm seriously so down recently and don't really know how to express this,

I'm still smiling, laughing sometimes, just being more quiet than usual.

I hate to find that I hate to talk to human recently, rarely not. I'm so tired with life.

How can I be me just me nicely.

How enough is enough.

What can I do.

Good night my life is still looking interesting cuz I just don't know how to run out from this cycle.
People around me, I still love you all.
It's me who is not lovable.