谢谢你当了一阵子的distraction吧。本来就不太健康的开始。
我还蛮喜欢照片中你的脸的。
但这世代大家都有一些照骗也实属正常吧。
但这世代大家都有一些照骗也实属正常吧。
在露营的那个晚上，在热闹的大伙中，我还是会想起你。
可是我不太想和你说话。这个状况已经持续了好一阵子了吧。
因为你常常让我很接不下去话啊。一点都没有用心讲话的感觉。
我也是有put一些efforts啊。
我也是有put一些efforts啊。
不被放在心上就一直很想试探要是我不继续对话你还会不会来找我的底线。
直到，突然看到你在当初的交友软体突然更新了一个状态。
突然。的。就。死心。了。
突然。的。就。死心。了。
原来我们还真不是同一道上的人啊。我还以为是呢。
突然一切的表象都有了解释。因为你就是那样的人啊。不是说说而已。而是真的是。
还以为呢。
其实很的觉得有点可惜。觉得浪费了好多时间和专注力在我们的对谈。
朋友叫我不要惋惜，要庆幸是在这么短的时间看清了这个人。
我还是有点很难过。艾。这是正常的吧。毕竟是多愁善感的我。
本来不想承认自己真的那么在意，让自己沉浸在难过里的，一直告诉自己及时止损，没事的。
但想了想，还是接受自己真的有一点动心，有一点在乎，所以有难过的事实吧。
这样才有利于痊愈，不是？
The Pattern说的对呀，我常常会预设想象一个人的样子，然后喜欢上那个样子。
我以为我听了劝就做得到呢。还是需要再练习呀。
说真的，鬼使神差在吉隆玻见面的那次，我也没多喜欢你嘛。
真的只是习惯了你，有一点喜欢上了想象中你吧。
所以呀，女孩很容易喜欢上每天陪自己聊天的人这还蛮有依据的嘛。
所以我才挑人讲话，才没有那么多心力跟人对话呢。
一开始也真是能聊的来吧。
一开始你也问了我的目的，我也据实说了。我问了你，你说和我一样。骗人的吧？
何苦呢？直面自己的目的不好吗？
现在浪费我的生命，也浪费你的生命不是吗？
现在浪费我的生命，也浪费你的生命不是吗？
你有那么缺朋友还是对谈的人吗？
真的很庆幸自己还有坚守着的底线，有些故事真的要保留着的说。
在不确定之前，真没必要说。
在不确定之前，真没必要说。
真正令人难过的是，我失去了再对另一个人这样倾诉的欲望吧。
我真的越来越来越来越懒惰去重复这样的一些对谈了。
这对我找到对的他的进度不好吧？
这对我找到对的他的进度不好吧？
所以还是勉强着自己聊聊一些废话
因为不知道那一段废话有可能进展成不是废话
因为不知道那一段废话有可能进展成不是废话
我目的性太强了吗
可是 真的能抱着只当普通朋友心态开始的吗
可是 真的能抱着只当普通朋友心态开始的吗
大家一开始最好表明目的 不浪费生命不是
我这次已经很慢慢来了 结果呢
我的大好三个月 我真该好好准时早早睡觉的
我这次已经很慢慢来了 结果呢
我的大好三个月 我真该好好准时早早睡觉的
所有看过的大道理，现在都说得通了啊。
“ You could be a full package and still arrive at a wrong address.”
“ People who care won’t put themselves in a position to lose you.”
“The best thing I did was learn to stop fighting for someone who was okay with losing me.”
“The best thing I did was learn to stop fighting for someone who was okay with losing me.”
“ You shouldn’t have to threaten to leave in order to receive the love you need.”
真正下了决心的离开 都是悄声无息的。
“ You’re in a relationship to be happy, to smile, to laugh, and to make good memories. Not to be constantly upset, to feel hurt, and to cry. Choose the relationship that’s going to lead growth within yourself and your love for one another.”
Glad that it was even before that?
“ Idk who needs this message but seriously, you did the right thing. You didn’t overreact, you just finally got sick for their bullshit/lies/manipulation. Stop feeling guilty. You tired SO many fucking times. You gave them so many chances. This is a blessing. It’s time to move on.”
I did. I did tried to communicate a lot, expressing my feels and thoughts. You just aint interested to look into.
“ I used to think I was being too picky but fuck that. I deserve someone who wants to know about me. It may sound silly but I don’t wanna be out there fucking people who never ask my favourite colour or if I ate today. I deserve someone who wants to hear my dreams just as much as I want to hear theirs. I deserve the same energy and effort I release. Fuck that.”
“ The 1st step to healing is acceptance. You have to accept the true colours that people show you, no matter what you thought they were or how they used to act. Stop romanticising people who are hurting you. Repeated mistakes aren’t accidents, that’s their behaviour.”
It should be clear by now.
“ Are you losing friends or are you losing the people who were never actually genuine.”
最后再送自己一些quotes吧。
“ It’s okay to be sad about something you thought you healed from.”
“You don’t have to apologise for your emotions.”
难过是可以的 不要否认它了。
“Sometimes we expect more from others because we’d be willing to do that much for them.”
可能其实我也不愿为你做那么多吧。
“ Your taste in people will change when you learn to love yourself.”
还在学习中呢。
“ Some people will learn how to appreciate you by losing you. Go where you are celebrated, NOT tolerated. If people treated you like an option, leave them like a choice. You’re worth being loved and adored.”
He is not really into you, and, it shows.
“ 28/48. If it still bothers you after 24hours, speak up about it within 48. It’ll change your life. ”
I wanted to talk. I always wanted a closure. And then I thought, it’s okay, I don’t think you worth the conversation.
“ The relationship you have with yourself is the most complicated because you can’t walk away from you. You have to forgive every mistake. You have to deal with every flaw. You have to find a way to love you even when you’re disgusted with you.”
“Someday everything will make perfect sense. So for now, laugh at the confusion, smile through the tears and keep reminding yourself that everything happens for a reason.”
But, no thanks, for the lesson.
“ Ladies: If he makes you laugh, kisses your forehead, says he’s sorry, makes efforts, holds your hand, works hard to make you happy and attempts to make you happy. Then believe it or not, he’s quite perfect.”
I understand this. I think I’m not even picky at all?
“ You’re rare, so people are gonna fall in love with the idea of having you, but most of them aren’t used to rare, they’re foreign to it, so they’ll lack the capacity to treat you as such. And that’s where they lose you.”
“ You gotta train your mind to be stronger than your emotions or else you’’’ lose yourself everytime.”
“Taking care of you is productive.” Don’t feel sorry.
“Behind every great relationship are difficult & uncomfortable conversations we rarely get to see. Great relationship don’t just fall into our laps. They require people to move through their fears and insecurities & do the hard work to move wounds into healing.”
Yes but it needs to be mutual.
Okay enough for tonight. Thanks to those quotes that speaks to my heart at times.
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